to luke, on your first birthday
August 15, 2016
On this day, at 10:02 PM, exactly one year ago, you were born and my life was changed forever. When I first laid eyes on you, I was completely and utterly overwhelmed with love, joy and a sense of accomplishment. You were finally here and I couldn’t wait to get to know you.
I want you to know that I’ve loved you from the moment I knew you were there. That my love only grew stronger when I saw your perfectly formed little body on the ultrasound screen. I could hardly believe you were in there. When I first heard your heart beating, my own heart skipped a beat. My love grew even stronger as I watched you grow and felt you move inside my belly, and I cried with joy when I first laid eyes on you.
The first few hours of your life are so deeply etched in my memory that I know I’ll never forget them. Those first few hours with you were complete and total bliss. I’ll never forget the way you looked, the way you smelled, or how perfect you were. I couldn’t stop looking at you in wonder and awe. You had perfect little fingers and toes, a little button nose, a full head of dark hair and the most beautiful, deep blue eyes. Since you joined our family, our lives have never been more full of love, excitement, fun and joy. Your dad and I have loved watching you grow, learn and experience the world. I am so lucky to call you my son.
And today, you turn one. One! My first year as a mama was everything I’d ever hoped it would be, and so much more. It’s been the most rewarding, challenging, exciting, humbling and fulfilling year of my life and I’m grateful for every bit of it.
We’ve had a whole year full of more love than I knew was possible. A whole year of loving you with every part of my being. A whole year as a mama. A whole year filled with your smiles, laughter, and cuddles. A whole year of discoveries and a growing personality. A whole year filled with your uncontainable joy and love for life. A whole year spent with you and I’m still falling more and more in love with you each day.
It’s been a year of firsts and I’ve loved them all. Your first smile, first Christmas, first visit to the cottage, first tooth, and so many more. The first time you smiled you melted my heart, and the first time you laughed I thought I’d burst with love. And now it’s your first birthday. It’s hard to believe I’ve already known you for an entire year. It’s surreal that only twelve months ago we were anxiously waiting to meet you and now I can barely remember my life without you.
I can’t wait to see what the next year holds for you, Luke. Daddy & I love you more than you’ll ever know.
Happy birthday, sweetheart.
“And she loved a little boy
Very, very much
Even more than she loved herself
She calls him son”
– Shel Silverstein