Heart, Motherhood

staying home

With Luke’s first birthday coming up quickly (how am I the mother of an almost one year old?!), the discussion of what’s next for our family has come up more and more frequently. Do I go back to work full- time? Part-time? Not at all? Can we handle it financially? Was I okay with putting my career on hold? Will I lose myself and become just a mom? What’s best for Luke and for our family?

Once I got pregnant, Curtis and I talked often about the idea of me staying home for a few years while our kids were young. The conversation continued after Luke’s birth and it remained part of the discussion as he got older. Staying home with my kids was always something that I wanted to do. My mom stayed home with my siblings and I, so I always figured I would stay home with my kids, too. Curtis also felt strongly that I should stay home, a feeling that grew stronger for him as Luke got older.

Ultimately, we decided that for us, having me stay home is the right choice. This way, I can not only raise our son myself, but we can save money on child care, I can take care of the home (which I love to do), and I’ll really be able to soak up every second of motherhood. We agreed that overall, having me stay home would lead to a better lifestyle for us.

So, about two weeks ago, I officially left my position with the company I was with prior to Luke’s birth. I had mixed emotions and it was pretty overwhelming, but the overall feeling I had was gratefulness. I am so grateful to Curtis for supporting me with this decision and for his ability and desire to work hard to provide for our family.

While I know this isn’t the right choice for everyone, I’m so thankful I’m able to do it. For me, being home with Luke is everything. I can’t wait to see what the future holds for us, but right now, life is pretty damn good.

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